Today I registered for my final classes of my college career. The past few weeks have been a whirlwind. Getting all of my ducks in a row for capstone, trying to figure out post grad plans as well as summer plans, and just overall chaos in this season of life.
It’s days like this that I can’t help but think I’m the only one who isn’t completely put together. It seems everyone else is gearing up for their fabulous jobs in big cities. Meanwhile, I’m sitting on my bed putting the final touches on the copy of my capstone plans book. I haven’t gotten dressed yet (or even brushed my teeth if we’re being honest) let alone figured out what I’m doing with the rest of my life.
It seems that every time I even try to tackle that task I get overwhelmed. I get anxious looking at all my options and don’t know which is right for me. My job search usually consists of me opening 20 or so tabs of jobs to apply to then never actually applying to any of them.
But there are pockets of joy that I’ve found have kept me grounded. Eating dinner with my roommate, Juliana, has become time that I cherish. The signs that are pictured at the top of this post have become some of my favorite possessions and I feel calm every time I walk into my bedroom and see them. And receiving mail from friends around the country reminds me that even if I don’t have it all figured out I’m loved more than I could ever know.
The big things will bring worry and anxiety. But it’s the small things that bring contention and happiness. That is what I’ve been trying to focus on in these moments where my life feels like a whirlwind. Because I’m never going to have it completely figured out, but that doesn’t mean I can’t find the joy of the simple pleasures in my life.